Every morning on my drive to take H to school my sister, Stephanie calls to chat with H and me. Mostly H but once she’s at school I get to chat with my sister. One morning as I was driving and Stephanie was making her way out the door to go to work –

Stephanie – Alexa turn down the music.…. ALEXA turn volume down two. ALEXA! PLEASE turn the music done.
Me – Alexa listens well.
Stephanie – Alexa turn the music down. She is not listening today.
Me – That is because she is too busy eavesdropping on your conversations.
Stephanie – Why? So she can send me stuff to buy?
Me – Yes, that is exactly why.
Stephanie – pft.
Me – Just like your smart TV watches you.
Stephanie – nervously laughs.
H – 🦗🦗🦗
Stephanie – continues to nervously laugh.
H – Wait. Do we have a smart TV at my house?
Me – Yep!
H – So it sees me?
Me – Yep!
H – ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?!?!?!?!?!??! I GET DRESSED IN THE LIVING ROOM SO IT SEES ME NAKED!
Me – YEP!
Stephanie – bursts out laughing – THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY!
Me – I know you were. You were looking for a G rated way to say it.
Stephanie – still laughing – I WAS!

Driving home from picking H up from school.

Me – How was your day!?
H – Can I tell you something?
Me – ALWAYS!
H – There is no field trips at my school until grade three!! NONE! I need to go back to my old school. This sucks.
Me – 🤦🏻‍♀️

Another after school pick up…..

Me – So glad to see you! How was your day!?
H – Terrible.
Me – Oh tell me about it.
H – Once we are in the car.

I assume it has to do with a disagreement with a friend at recess. We get in the car.

H – Can I tell you about my terrible bad day?
Me – Yep.
H – Pasta day was today.
Me – Okay?
H – It was late so we had to go outside for recess and THEN come in to have lunch.
Me – 🤔 – Pasta being late made it a terrible bad day?
H – Yes.

Safe to say she was probably hangry and did not want to wait any longer for her pasta lunch.

H new hobby is to go out back and pick up dog poo… 🤦🏻‍♀️
Matcha (her protector) is never too far, keeping watch for coyotes…
Moo is just there to hangout and annoy H.

No clue of why I bought all the cereal. The chocolate almonds barely lasted a week…. I have ate most of them…. No shock there.

H is staying strong in her opinion.

Once upon a time, a long, long time ago, I slept through the night. I slept so deep I swear I could have slept through a train going through the bedroom. Then…. I had a baby and never slept again. Not unless I had ear plugs in, or medicated myself. Maybe one day I will sleep again, unaided.

Nice of Jared to confirm Dharma was not dead…..

I have been feeling a lot of grief the past few weeks. When Macchiato passed away in September I was at peace with it. She was very ill, I could have continued treatment and hoped she got better, but her lil face looked tired and defeated. The vet and I agreed it was time to let her go, so I did. The days following were tough but I knew I made the right decision.

I was busy packing and moving, kept busy and didn’t have a lot of time to miss Macchiato. Here we are six months later and I have been missing her. Her sassy attitude, her floofy fur and how sweet and snuggly she was with me but standoffish with everyone else.

My heart has been filled with so much sadness I almost got a puppy. A FREAKING PUPPY! Good grief I am glad that was a fleeting moment. Ok….. several fleeting moments.

Reading these posts have brought me some comfort.

If you are mourning the loss of a beloved pet, friend or family member, you are not alone. 💕